Whatever you find yourself in life, 101 Days can help you to experience some inner peace again
101 days came about approximately four years ago. I had recently left an unpleasant relationship. One evening I opened his computer and discovered the truth of who he was and what he had been doing for our entire relationship. One morning six weeks later, after yet another horrible dream, I knew that it was time to leave. I packed up the motor home, put in my two doggies and drove to a run-down old house that I owned in Spain.
When I arrived, I knew that I needed to focus on my first 100 days and I added 1 on for good measure. The first 100 days of a leaders life (to quote my Executive Coaching training) are critical. It seemed to me, that these were also critical days, and if I was going to live and work here successfully, I'd better focus on what I wanted to create and moving forward.
Journaling had saved my life before, so I figured it would save it again. But this time I wanted more from it.
To be honest it was difficult. At the same time of writing I did a daily video. Watching the rawness of the betrayal unravel was at times ugly, but also cathartic.
It helped me to keep to going forward.
Later I wrote a book - Rude Awakenings. A journey to self-love. I didn't want to publish, it was a cathartic journey. I'm forever grateful for my 101 days journal and the healing writing experience.
Some time ago I destroyed the videos and journal. I watched that part of my life go up in cleansing flames. I do love a good journal burning ceremony, don't you?
Fast forward to 2018, and by the third week of January, my spine had fractured. I was unable to breathe and walk properly, and I was in intense pain. After a week of staring at the ceiling, I dragged myself out of bed to find a journal I had been saving for a special occasion. This was indeed a special occasion; my life depended on my recovery.
My three dogs went into the kennels and friends were doing my shopping. I made myself get up to cook, but it was hard. After 11 days I couldn’t bear not having my dogs with me, and they returned from the kennels, and a friend walked them daily for me. Their love and needs along with my journal and friends kept me going.
I learned from an unsympathetic specialist that I had osteoporosis. She gave me a prescription and told me to go to the gym. I cried in her surgery and I cried in the street. However, I discovered a deep wisdom that said I could heal this naturally.
To be fair I am also determined, pretty bloody minded and focused.
Over 2018, I devoured books, blogs and research papers looking for answers. I wanted to know the root cause and treat that. It wasn’t easy, and I did have some other complications that affected my mental health. But I knew it was temporary and that if I carried on writing, I would get through this.
Once again wrote a book - Healing Osteoporosis Naturally, and once again I did it for cathartic reasons.
When I could, I started working again, going through old plans and content and bringing things up to date when I had the energy. It felt incredible to be a part of things again, but I soon realised I could not maintain the long days.
I found simplicity, and I trusted that all would be well. I also knew that like 2014, which at the time rocked my world, 2018-2019 became the biggest period of personal growth I have ever experienced. While it hurt and I am still in some pain, I am celebrating finding me, loving me and healing.
A voice said you need to do 101 days again. You need to go on a deep inner journey; you may have found you, but what about letting a bit more of the grunge go while focusing on what you want? What about your business, your bucket list for your soul (goals, desires, intentions)? What about your further healing? What about so many things?
In an instant, the contract was signed and a new journal placed by the side of my bed. 101 days of being me has once again emerged.
When you find yourself at the edge of the void, you can look down and let go free falling into who knows where. Or you can look within to your divine inner wisdom where the answers to what you desire lie.
You can manifest magic.
Without a crystal ball, we could not have predicted that the CoronaVirus would cause such havoc in our lives. Locked down in our homes is not something anyone would want and yet here we are.
I am deeply appreciative for all that I have and especially for my journal. I have had many days when I know that it's ok to not be ok. But through exploring my feelings and writing I have been able to stay on top of things.
Right now is the perfect time to explore you and to find some inner peace in the chaos.
I've hand picked quotes which speak from my heart to the heart of the reader and journaler. These are designed to inspire deep reflection.
Questions and food for thought to kick-start your musing and journaling.
As a consequence, when you crack open your heart to loving yourself unconditionally, life will change. Plus a healthy dose of self-love will boost those feel-good hormones, and that has to be good – right?
When you find inner peace you will find yourself at ease in all situations. Having inner peace means that you can lay a solid foundation for continuing contentment and happiness.
" Happiness cannot be traveled to, owned, earned, worn or consumed. Happiness is the spiritual experience of living every minute with love, grace, and gratitude." Denis Waitley
Because your journal is private you can: -
I am open to receiving all of the abundance that the Universe has to offer me
I am loved and I am lovable
The best things in life are free - love, honour and respect. They are my birthright